Saturday, October 25, 2008
he is just online. he's just a click away. but i chose to appear offline. i chose to tell him the truth that he fucking make me cry every night.
but i dont want to keep hearing SORRYs from him.
but i dont want to keep hearing SORRYs from him.
11:53 PM & life, said so.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
how come i cry so easily these few days?
how come i just think of you when the lights go off?
how come i feel so lost without you?
how come there are so many how comes?
i dont want to ask you for your immediate answer. but you're not a crush to me. you are my boyfriend. you should have told me whatever you felt at whichever point in time. and you know i wouldnt mind.
just looking back at our msn chat log kills me okay. it just kills me totally. it starts to haunt me all the way from the time we stepped back into singapore, up till the day before. from all the nonsense jokes, comparing who types faster than who, discussing about where to go, to ask each other to buck up during hard times, to help out each other in project work, till now, that we are like strangers; but we are boygirlfriend.
and just plain looking at the yellow big bird that belongs to you, i can just breakdown rightaway. i hold it so tightly even when i sleep. they used to be a pair. but now they are separated, just like us.
...
how come i just think of you when the lights go off?
how come i feel so lost without you?
how come there are so many how comes?
i dont want to ask you for your immediate answer. but you're not a crush to me. you are my boyfriend. you should have told me whatever you felt at whichever point in time. and you know i wouldnt mind.
just looking back at our msn chat log kills me okay. it just kills me totally. it starts to haunt me all the way from the time we stepped back into singapore, up till the day before. from all the nonsense jokes, comparing who types faster than who, discussing about where to go, to ask each other to buck up during hard times, to help out each other in project work, till now, that we are like strangers; but we are boygirlfriend.
and just plain looking at the yellow big bird that belongs to you, i can just breakdown rightaway. i hold it so tightly even when i sleep. they used to be a pair. but now they are separated, just like us.
...
10:38 PM & life, said so.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
freak man! the intensive timetable is screwed up!
7:37 PM & life, said so.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
bloodyly kill that bloody caleb la please. he's just fucking gay. roar.
happy children's day in advance folks. we're always young at heart, no matter how chao lao you look. mugging starts after pw, effectively now. ):
happy children's day in advance folks. we're always young at heart, no matter how chao lao you look. mugging starts after pw, effectively now. ):
11:19 PM & life, said so.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
rahhhh. pw's back to haunt me again. this time its i&r. never mind. i shall be determined to finish it today and yay! i'm going to get my viewty today! YAAAAY. i gonna be such a happy skinnypiggirlfriend today. :D hahhahahah.
doddles people. (:
doddles people. (:
12:18 PM & life, said so.
Friday, September 26, 2008
uh. i've opened this window for long. but i typed nothing.
yea i guessed as much, cause life's like this and i've got nothing to say about life now.
all is like studying and studying.
and i just realised some of my classmates arent nice people afterall.
well, people like this are everywhere, so many that i can no longer tell.
but i have to thank for at least i have someone that i can really trust.
and ya. what is just revolving around me is just that magical word,
STUDY.
(:
yea i guessed as much, cause life's like this and i've got nothing to say about life now.
all is like studying and studying.
and i just realised some of my classmates arent nice people afterall.
well, people like this are everywhere, so many that i can no longer tell.
but i have to thank for at least i have someone that i can really trust.
and ya. what is just revolving around me is just that magical word,
STUDY.
(:
10:43 PM & life, said so.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
wr's over. yes ah!
but promo starts tmr. oh dont worry man. its just gp and the other papers are like in october. yjc is damn crap for this timetable, cause i remember myself complaining to CT miss lim n-times just because of this. hahah.
life's crap. i miss boyfriend. i miss the chin-chin. omg. i want to see him now.
i'm just missing him. sigh.
but i gotta start working hard now, cause i cant afford to fail promo, or i'll go poly (i think).
whatever.
i'm going study later at yewtee mac, catch me if you want. bye.
but promo starts tmr. oh dont worry man. its just gp and the other papers are like in october. yjc is damn crap for this timetable, cause i remember myself complaining to CT miss lim n-times just because of this. hahah.
life's crap. i miss boyfriend. i miss the chin-chin. omg. i want to see him now.
i'm just missing him. sigh.
but i gotta start working hard now, cause i cant afford to fail promo, or i'll go poly (i think).
whatever.
i'm going study later at yewtee mac, catch me if you want. bye.
12:47 PM & life, said so.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
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get my xanga link if you want it. :D hahahahha.
life's been great i think. maybe not so when you are mugging for promos. its here on monday. so omg.
chem lecture is the only lecture so far in my life that, i swear, i kept awake totally and was listening lah! omg. the lecturer shows a look of unspoken fierce, which totally made me experience cold shudders despite the super warmness of foxy (FYI: my yellow FOX pullover). apparently the chem reps were supposed to get the attendance list and return it 10 minutes later, and FYI again, i'm chem rep for my class. 10 minutes passed, and no one went until the lecturer heard the middle bell and said that our 10 minutes were taking long. omg la, every second i was off my seat, i was shivering!
alright, drawing lessons for wr. (: at least its something fun and i i like, i think. LOL
11:47 PM & life, said so.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
FUCK.
11:17 PM & life, said so.
i knew weiliang will tag me, and unfortunately, he did. rahhh.
name: lauren/huiyi (up to you)
birthday: 28 aug
birthplace: kk hospital
eye colour: black
hair colour: brown black
height: 166?
right/left handed: right handed
heritage: chinese
worst habit: uh, being very very very irritating at times
zodiac sigh: goat
shoe size: 7.5
pant size: idk
innie or outie: what?
parents still together: yes
shoes you wore today: rotting-to-be slippers
your weakness: being too trusting in pple
your fears: PROMOS, and snakes.
your perfect pizza: hawaiian, lots cheese please!
goal you would like to achieve this year: PROMOTION TO J2!
your most overused phrase in msn: hahaha
your best physical feature: i like my eyes (without rings of course)
your bedtime: after 11pm, before 2 am, preferrably.
your most missed memories: relief teaching, unity times.
MY FAVOURITES
colours: green and yellow.
food: a lot i think?
sports: volleyball and rock climbing
animal: jeremy's dog, baby. :D
ice cream: AFTEREIGHT IN GERMANY! ):
candy: cola?
store: daiso, muji and toysr'us.
salad dressing: THOUSAND ISLAND SAUCE.
actor: huh.
songs: secondhand serenade
letter: uh, no idea.
number: 12
gum: none.
holiday: germany
season: winter
toothpaste flavour: i'm anti flavoured toothpaste, i only go darlie!
radio station: 93.3fm (but no longer listen to radio)
perfume: i've got sensitive nose.
secnt beside perfume: refreshing will do
body part on the opposite sex: 6 pacs
FRIENDS AND LIFE
what do you want to be when you grow up: air stewardess
how do you want to die: die early and painlessly.
turn on: uh, idk.
turn off: whatever.
which of your friends acts most like you: no one yet.
who's the loudest: NG XI TING.
who makes you laugh the most: anyone can la. (:
who have you known the longest?: gabriel ong js from jtpss to dlss and uss.
who's the shyiest?: good question. idk.
what is the best feeling in the world: being happy with the loved one!
worst feeling: lots man, dont wanna list out.
where do you want to live when you grow up: singapore i think?
if you could change on thing about you what will it be: negative mindset.
how long do you think you'll live: i want to die at 60 plus.
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
lets walk on the: cow. random i know.
lets look at the: one love. >< i'm listening to it.
where did all the: brain cells go?
why cant we: live as we are?
silly, little: nonsense skinnypigboyfriend.
isnt it weird that: i'm tolerating your shit?
never under any circumstances: that i'll kiss your ass.
i wish: i can turn you into a piece of shit.
everyone has a: brain that is innocent to start with.
i am: who i am.
HAVE YOU EVER
been in love: in one now.
been to juvie: what?
mooned someone? what?
been rejected: think so?
ran away from home:no.
picture your crush naked: i'm not crazy
skipped school: yes
thought about suicide: yes
slept outside: yes
laughed so hard you cried: yes
cried in school: yes
thrown up in school: yes
wanted to be a model: yes
cheated on someone: yes
done something really stupid that you still laugh at it today: yes
seen a dead body: yes
been bitched out: yes
drank alcohol: yes
smoked: no and never
been on drugs: no and never
eaten sushi: yes
been on stage: yes
gone skinny dipping: no
shoplifted: no
been drunk: no
been called a tease: no
been beaten up: no
DO YOU
swear: yes
sing well: i hope i do.
shower daily: NO I SHOWER ANNUALLY, oh please yes la.
want to go college: yes
want to get married: before 25
believe in yourself: sometimes
get motion sickness: yes
think you're attractive: no
get along with your parents: not all the time
like thunderstorms: only when i'm emo
play an instrument: clarinet
own an ipod: yea
pray: whenever mama drag me to temple
go to church: no
sleep with a stuffed animal: yes
keep a diary/journal: updated every 6 months counted?
dance in the rain: i'd love to
sing in the shower: forever
THIS OR THAT
pepsi or coke: pepsi
mac or BK: BK
single or group dates: single
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
strawberry or blueberry: strawberry
meat or veggie: DEPENDS
tv or movie: movie
guitar or drums: guitar
adidas or nike: BOTH IF I DONT NEED TO PAY
chinese or mexican: chinese
cheerios or corn flake: corn flake
cake or pie: none
mtv or vh1: none.
blind or deaf: none
boxers of briefs: none
CAN YOU
do splits: last time
write with both hands: no
whistle: no
blow a bubble: gum no
roll your tongue in a circle: no
cross your eyes: yes
walk with your toes curles: no, later got cramps
touch your tongue to touch your nose: idk.
dance: unlikely
eat whatever you want and no worry: ya.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
you touched: my youngest nephew cause he fell down
you talked to on the phone: jeremy
you msned: nikhill
you hugged: jeremy
you yelled at: cant rmb.
you play a sport with: who?
WHEN WAS THE LAST
time you laughed: this morning
time you cried: ask jeremy.
movie you watched: i think its X-files
flavour of gum you chewed: cant rmb
joke you told: cant rmb
song you sung: mandy by jonas bros.
BELIEFS
life on other planets: no
miracles: yes
magic: no
love at first sight: yes
god: tuapekgong maybe? (dont mean anything)
satan: idk
ghosts: yes
santa: hell no, i got cheated when i was young.
evolution: huh?
can i leave out the last part? i want to do work alr. hahahah.
i tagggggggggggggg.
TAN PEIQI, YIFANG, CHARMAINE. ;D and whoever else who wants to do it. (:
name: lauren/huiyi (up to you)
birthday: 28 aug
birthplace: kk hospital
eye colour: black
hair colour: brown black
height: 166?
right/left handed: right handed
heritage: chinese
worst habit: uh, being very very very irritating at times
zodiac sigh: goat
shoe size: 7.5
pant size: idk
innie or outie: what?
parents still together: yes
shoes you wore today: rotting-to-be slippers
your weakness: being too trusting in pple
your fears: PROMOS, and snakes.
your perfect pizza: hawaiian, lots cheese please!
goal you would like to achieve this year: PROMOTION TO J2!
your most overused phrase in msn: hahaha
your best physical feature: i like my eyes (without rings of course)
your bedtime: after 11pm, before 2 am, preferrably.
your most missed memories: relief teaching, unity times.
MY FAVOURITES
colours: green and yellow.
food: a lot i think?
sports: volleyball and rock climbing
animal: jeremy's dog, baby. :D
ice cream: AFTEREIGHT IN GERMANY! ):
candy: cola?
store: daiso, muji and toysr'us.
salad dressing: THOUSAND ISLAND SAUCE.
actor: huh.
songs: secondhand serenade
letter: uh, no idea.
number: 12
gum: none.
holiday: germany
season: winter
toothpaste flavour: i'm anti flavoured toothpaste, i only go darlie!
radio station: 93.3fm (but no longer listen to radio)
perfume: i've got sensitive nose.
secnt beside perfume: refreshing will do
body part on the opposite sex: 6 pacs
FRIENDS AND LIFE
what do you want to be when you grow up: air stewardess
how do you want to die: die early and painlessly.
turn on: uh, idk.
turn off: whatever.
which of your friends acts most like you: no one yet.
who's the loudest: NG XI TING.
who makes you laugh the most: anyone can la. (:
who have you known the longest?: gabriel ong js from jtpss to dlss and uss.
who's the shyiest?: good question. idk.
what is the best feeling in the world: being happy with the loved one!
worst feeling: lots man, dont wanna list out.
where do you want to live when you grow up: singapore i think?
if you could change on thing about you what will it be: negative mindset.
how long do you think you'll live: i want to die at 60 plus.
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
lets walk on the: cow. random i know.
lets look at the: one love. >< i'm listening to it.
where did all the: brain cells go?
why cant we: live as we are?
silly, little: nonsense skinnypigboyfriend.
isnt it weird that: i'm tolerating your shit?
never under any circumstances: that i'll kiss your ass.
i wish: i can turn you into a piece of shit.
everyone has a: brain that is innocent to start with.
i am: who i am.
HAVE YOU EVER
been in love: in one now.
been to juvie: what?
mooned someone? what?
been rejected: think so?
ran away from home:no.
picture your crush naked: i'm not crazy
skipped school: yes
thought about suicide: yes
slept outside: yes
laughed so hard you cried: yes
cried in school: yes
thrown up in school: yes
wanted to be a model: yes
cheated on someone: yes
done something really stupid that you still laugh at it today: yes
seen a dead body: yes
been bitched out: yes
drank alcohol: yes
smoked: no and never
been on drugs: no and never
eaten sushi: yes
been on stage: yes
gone skinny dipping: no
shoplifted: no
been drunk: no
been called a tease: no
been beaten up: no
DO YOU
swear: yes
sing well: i hope i do.
shower daily: NO I SHOWER ANNUALLY, oh please yes la.
want to go college: yes
want to get married: before 25
believe in yourself: sometimes
get motion sickness: yes
think you're attractive: no
get along with your parents: not all the time
like thunderstorms: only when i'm emo
play an instrument: clarinet
own an ipod: yea
pray: whenever mama drag me to temple
go to church: no
sleep with a stuffed animal: yes
keep a diary/journal: updated every 6 months counted?
dance in the rain: i'd love to
sing in the shower: forever
THIS OR THAT
pepsi or coke: pepsi
mac or BK: BK
single or group dates: single
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
strawberry or blueberry: strawberry
meat or veggie: DEPENDS
tv or movie: movie
guitar or drums: guitar
adidas or nike: BOTH IF I DONT NEED TO PAY
chinese or mexican: chinese
cheerios or corn flake: corn flake
cake or pie: none
mtv or vh1: none.
blind or deaf: none
boxers of briefs: none
CAN YOU
do splits: last time
write with both hands: no
whistle: no
blow a bubble: gum no
roll your tongue in a circle: no
cross your eyes: yes
walk with your toes curles: no, later got cramps
touch your tongue to touch your nose: idk.
dance: unlikely
eat whatever you want and no worry: ya.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
you touched: my youngest nephew cause he fell down
you talked to on the phone: jeremy
you msned: nikhill
you hugged: jeremy
you yelled at: cant rmb.
you play a sport with: who?
WHEN WAS THE LAST
time you laughed: this morning
time you cried: ask jeremy.
movie you watched: i think its X-files
flavour of gum you chewed: cant rmb
joke you told: cant rmb
song you sung: mandy by jonas bros.
BELIEFS
life on other planets: no
miracles: yes
magic: no
love at first sight: yes
god: tuapekgong maybe? (dont mean anything)
satan: idk
ghosts: yes
santa: hell no, i got cheated when i was young.
evolution: huh?
can i leave out the last part? i want to do work alr. hahahah.
i tagggggggggggggg.
TAN PEIQI, YIFANG, CHARMAINE. ;D and whoever else who wants to do it. (:
2:17 PM & life, said so.
rah. uh. yea. CIP is tiring. made me sleep like a pig.
newton eating was good. cause all those long long never eat stuffs were inside my stomach again! :D
i gonna be so packed so packed all the way till december.
totally omgggggggggg.
and i miss all those yjc pple! ):
newton eating was good. cause all those long long never eat stuffs were inside my stomach again! :D
i gonna be so packed so packed all the way till december.
totally omgggggggggg.
and i miss all those yjc pple! ):
1:56 PM & life, said so.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
xanga's up alr. but i'm trying to get familiar with all those using.
hooked to jelly beans now! :D
hooked to jelly beans now! :D
9:47 PM & life, said so.
